||[Dec. 31st, 2006|07:52 pm]
This year was interesting. Many up's and downs, mostly downs, lost, won, and lost again.
I broke a boys heart this year. That was not cool. I gained a whole bunch of new friends. I fell in love with someone i could never have. I have seen things that have changed my life. I have done things to change my body and life. I have become someone i never wanted to be emotionally. This year has been tough for me. After all, the worst burden we can bear is one of our own making, right? And this year i have had more then one yoke on my shoulders. i have lost more wight then gianed. I have gotten sick more then i ever have, my grades have dropped, i have lost hope for our kind, and i lost hope on Him. I have gne back to church, wich is a good thing, But i havent had a boyfriend in allmost a year, wich is a bad thing. I have been waitng for him, but i guess i have turned into an Eponine, with him being my Marius. I have no Montparnasse. I guess i should just give up on Him, but i cant bring myself to. He knows i love him. I told him in Beauty. I cant act anymore. My grades are too low. I can get back to my music i guess. I'm gonna start filming my life. Why? Just to see. I got mroe creative this year, working again in my stories and art. It feels good. I just hope next year will be better. I see no relationships for me in near or long future. Maybe i should just become a nun.